Sunday, September 04, 2005
the courtship of logic and vulnerability
I'm SUCH an idiot! Why do I let myself do this? Why do I persist in maintaining this facade?! Ugh! I'm such a freak! What will it take?!
You know what friends are for? ... pointing out that you're a MORON! (in the kindest way possible ... "um, by the way, did you know that you ...") oh, it's nothing that you don't already know yourself. It's just comforting that someone else knows. You know it sort of solidifies the fact ... just in case you were wondering!
It's going to take an entire revamping of my logic and an embracing of my vulnerability.
Oh God! Help Me! I am undone. Here I stand shaking before you, finally able to admit ... I cannot do it.